How can I forgive you, when all I want to do is hurt you?
When I look at you all I see is lies. When you speak all I hear is decite. Forgiving you is what I want to do, however it’s much harder than I thought. I want nothing more than to forget the pain ever happened, but it’s not possible. Every place I look, every memory I have is tainted. Tainted by betrayal.
I want to scream at the top of my lungs, I want to stop pretending that everything is ok. I’m hurting because of you. I’m feeling this way because of you. For someone to hurt me the way you did and me to forgive them, I must be out my mind. You lied and broke the trust I thought was impenetrable.
Now I look at you and I want to hurt you. But I can’t do that because I love you. I think of you why didn’t you think of me.
So I ask you this question, How can I forgive you, when all I want to do is hurt you?